Sunday, May 25, 2008

Rearranging things

2006 - Mom throws a fit to end all fits and I decide to convince Audrey that it is time we move out. We do, almost coinciding with our grandparents' deaths.

2007 - I get fired from my first job. We get internet at our apartment. Audrey meets Shaun. I get a new job. Audrey brings Sharon to live with us. Audrey and Shaun's relationship deepens. I get hired back from the same job I'd been fired from earlier in the year. Audrey decides to move in with Shaun and leaves to do so on Christmas Eve.

2008 - Tim informs me of the issue of my living with Sharon and how it affects my standing as a youth leader. Instead of doing as he said, I give in to the temptation of Sharon's aid. I later abuse my youth leader status by letting a youth girl visit me while we are both unchaperoned. I am asked to step down. Sharon leaves.

And suddenly, I can think again. I didn't really need Sharon's assistance. And something was up with her finances: $7 an hour she was making with 40 hours a week, yet she remained broke. I once had similar hours and pay rate, and I was making over $250 a week. If I was making that now, I'd really have no financial worries. But no matter, the important thing is she is gone, and so are her annoyances and overuse of my utilities.

It was reccomended to me that I join my Church's college and career group, but for a long time, I resisted. I'd remembered one time I had attempted to join, but I felt unwelcome. However, this time, a member of the group reached out to me and I have already been attending the cell group for two weeks.

I am still attempting to re-organize my life after everything that has changed. However, I am also aware that life never gets to a state of "normal." I suppose the option of returning to youth leadership may be open now, but I would prefer to wait until I enter employment that will allow me to accompany the youth group on more of their trips and events. It is really unfair that I wasn't allowed by circumstances to do so before. I know those kids miss me.

I've rambled enough.

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